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....gimme a C, bitch!! Gimme a friggin' C!!

I'm sooooooooo over studying. Apprently, rules to work in Britain have changed and they want people who possess only British degrees. Where's mine from? Timbuktu!! So much FOR my plans to go into the UK legally but heck...and feck.....who cares?

I'm sooooooo over this shitty degree. After the 9th, I can jump so high into the sky that no one could even bring me back to earth. That's how relieved I am going to be right after I leave this place where all degradable mentalities unite (soooo count me out of that!!) DAMMMNNN!!!! I'M A GRADUATE!!!!!! I can smell freedom a hundred miles away. SOOO THE %$#^%%&^&* RELIEVED!!

Back to sanity....

I have gotten a job in the UK and suffice to say that I am pretty daunted with this. I'll be working in the Communications department of Visit Britain, and its not a big-shots post yet. But a couple of years to get me off the base of the ladder would do. So I am proud of myself, and proud to be one of the 50,000(or more) PR practitioners in the UK (Now thats competitive eh?) Honestly, I almost gave up searching and thought implementing my last resort(marriage to my soddin old bf) would be nothing but a decision. But yay me!!

Louise, the head of communications did a phone interview with me and I was literally shitting in my pants, because I dont have the stylish conversational manner but more to the pasar malam sort of style. But I think I did pretty ok. Haha. Louise was practically laughing everytime she ends a sentence. Haha. Weirdo.

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I'm glad I got my hair done so it doesnt look very Kramer-ish anymore!! Nyek Nyek!

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MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

I'll be blogging more often after I'm done binding and submitting my thesis, along with the stupid exams that end of the 9th. Good luck to UTARians who are sitting for exams and and....hope I do not have to sit for the supp paper *crosses fingers*


TA!

Thanks to manda for this map thing...these are the countries i've vsisted so far.
It seems quite widespread but I've only been to only about a couple of places from every country I've been cept Malaysia and the UK..so I'm not much of a traveller, but hey I;m only 21, and I dont have Paris Hilton's bank account so...
I may be going to the UK in december if something in my mind doesnt bug me. I will know by next week.



create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands

Its funny how I sit in my PC listening to Ben's Bitches so much, and laughing it out like a hyena.
I am supposed to be studying but right now, I just dont give a fuck anymore, really. 2nd upper, 2nd lower, third class, its still the same papers. Blah. Afterall I hate studying :|

Ta!

Well I think LJ needs to be fed more with updates, since I;ve been blogging more on my blogspot lately.
Been very busy right now, I'm currently approaching completion of my bloody degree. 3 years of sacrifice, all paid off (hopefully) and I'm glad I've pulled through it and sailed an untainted boat this far. I was worrying if I was ever gonna drop out due to the constant depression while working in a team and dealing with overly prejudiced lecturers. nevertheless, I'm happy I've found the likes of Anne, Pek Mei, Bernard, Jasmine, Deborah, and a couple more I can't possibly think of. Yeah..I'm so waiting for this. The end of my life as a student (I doubt I'd go further).

I'll miss alot of things, mainly the incessant rants and jokes Anne and I share. If you knew what kinda jokes we create, you would want to stay out of my sight forever. mischievious we are. From all the movies, to the double trip per week to Section 14's McDs, it will all be cherished, when I'm finally moving in with Nick upon my arrival in England. I don't even know what should I do there. Probably marry and be a housewife eh? I just fucking dont know. I'm so messed up right now.

We had a campaign for our PR campaign planning module, and it was basically about ecotourism and public toilet cleanliness....wwwhh...WHAT? Public Toilet Cleanliness? Doesnt go well with ecotourism, innit? Oh well, I dont know for sure...........its a long story short - it is beacue of an obnoxiously stupid lecturer. Nevertheless, it went well, per say. My exhibition rocked!! Lols!! ;)

I've more to add later on..I;m just so knackered from sleeping at 2-3am for this whole week, staying back at uni till almost midnight, working "tirelessly" on this campaign, etc. and pics will be up too, once I get hold of my mate's copy.

I also have to add that my friends gave me a new nickname - Kramer from Seinfeld! Lol. I like the nickanme though, and for the purpose of it ;)

Before I leave, I would just like to mention how distressed I was when I heard of Paul Hunter's death. At 27 years of age - a millionaire, a beautiful wife, potential to be a dignified celebrity - ends with cancer? So fucking unacceptable. I'm basically talking on a humane perspective. I mean, if I have just given birth to what would only be our only child, while watching my husband die of cancer - would be such a nightmare, I would rather face a decapitated man in disgusting, slimey puddle of elephant poo. I am just so disturbed about his death although I have butterfingers while lifting up a cue, and only saw him ONCE playing on TV without even much notice. And his death? Currently dominating my mind........why oh why..........? *big sobs*







I'm horribly sad. My nightcap and some sleep will drown my sorrows.

"I'm so tired, I gotta sleep, I wanna wake up from a dream" - from Mindcircus

I still am having those vertigos than spin around at a menacing speed. I need to see the doctor. But.....
Nothing beats having a great family who is supportive. I guess I dont have that luxury :|
I doubt I can do well in my upcoming exams..the family condition has affected me so greatly I feel I may slump into second lower class. I can just feel it...
I've got a huge huge huge dilemma pertaining a job offer


I JUST WISH THESE THINGS IN MY LIFE ARE OK!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH LEADING A FUCKED UP, SHITTY LIFE!!!

GOD!!!!!!!!!

I was on my way to uni and the radio played back to back songs of my teenhood reminiscents.

1st song was N'Sync's Tearin Up My Heart - reminds me of my secondary school crush Jonathan Saw. He's this really shy chap with really cute teeth and the fact he's so chubby and pink makes me wanna kiss and pinch him all over. And I've always yearned for him to be in the same coc-curricular societies I've joined - and he did. The fact that he's got posts where he needs my assistance makes me more "hubba hubba". Oh...those were the days when I was young and innocent and yet to know much about life tee hee.

2nd song was Crazy Town's Butterfly. Oh that reminds me of Sterling, the ex. Well he mentioned that song was a dedication of love to me. So yup, cheers to the 5 years of being with him and now the 3rd year we've broken up since.

3rd song was Sheryl Crow's My Favourite Mistake. A reminiscence of Jonathan's mother. She REALLY looks like Sheryl Crow - the oriental version.

Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I was just beginning
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake 

My favourite mistake would be definitely the ex. Realised it at the 5th year of our relationship.
Took me 5 years of maturing to realise that he wasnt the one for me.
And I've thought about it so hard that he was the one.
The moment I've realised it - it was over. 

I miss him though, in some ways I know I may never get from the boy right now.

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Nelly Furtado's song "Promiscuous" keeps running in my head right now.
Probably its cos of Stevie who thinks im "promiscuous"
And..
I've done one of those lame personality tests out of sheer boredom and discovered my promiscuity tendency is only 3.7/10. So...............

Love Oakey's new track with Brittany Murphy singing it - never expected she sings well. Played it like a gazillion times yesterday. The song relates alot with who I am

Faster kill faster still pussycat

I cant stand to see you cry,
Honey you know where the world is at,
Get what you want with your lucky eyes

You turn me on,
You know your turning me, you know your turning me on,
You turn me on,
You know your turning me, you know your turning me on,

Better wake up this sleep head,
Big old world will pass us by,
So many things we could do instead,
Get what you want with your lucky eyes,

Faster kill faster still pussycat,

Those high heels are not your friends,
Honey you know where the world is at,
Come home with me when the party ends,

You turn me on,
You know your turning me, you know your turning me on,
You turn me on, 

Pussycat,

Pussycat,

Heaven knows I tried to let you go,
I cant help myself you know I’m out of control,
Heaven knows I tried to let you go,
I cant help myself I think I’m losing control

xx 

Guess what?
I dreamt I had sex with Mr Bean last night!! Annnndddd....his willy was like an odd 11 inches long...now thats scary.

Why Mr Bean? I dont know. And I dont think he's that sort who has extremely hot sex, he could be that mild, lovemaking dude. I mean, cant be compared to Josh Holloway of Lost, or Mike TYson(scarryyy!!!) or even Rio Ferdinand (claims he has horsepower stamina in bed)

I can imagine how Rowan Atkinson would be puking blood if he hears a person having wet dreams and sexual fantasies of her person who has very innocent humourous demenours.

Conclusion : I'm so MEAN!

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Watched another stupidly hilarious movie called "Tom, Dick, and Harry". It's a Hindi movie and tells the stroy of Tom who is deaf, Dick who is blind and Harry who is mute. And the funny things they do to bring down the bad guys? Hah. Totally stupid!

What the heck is Eva Longoria doing in Jessica Simpson's new video?

My mum concluded that I've put on an electrocuting amount of weight cos of my daily consumption of fast food. But seriously, I havent been eating anything above moderation, I mean, anything unhealthy, like food containing too much of fat, sugar, preservatives and salt. I mean I am drinking soya milk without any preservatives like everyday, nad not to mention the celery + green apple juice I tirelessly make for me and my sister. Doesnt that all taken into account or even helping me lose weight? I dont know how skinny my mum wants me to be but I AM FINE. Bleh.

Ok its time to freshen up and hit the books again. Blah I dont need to fail anything this semester, I'm almost there.

p/s: Hate the fact that my mum is pressuring me to have babies by next year. I'm dead serious. Why? Cos she thinks she will pass on to another life in 5 years time. Crap, is it just my mum only or do all mums put pressure on you the same way like mine does?

I was sooooo depressed cos of Dr Selv, as I promised myself, a lil retail therapy could do but guess what, it is a normal feeling I suppose but I'm more depressed after the window shopping. God damn sales! lol

So, after class I went to KLCC, sat on the train with my dear bebe and deb, and then got of KLCC, station
First stop was Armani Exchange. Quite alot of stuff I want to buy but I thought I'd check other places out first. I was eyeing on this white linen khakis I absolutely adore, and 70% off the retail price was such a temptation. I was looking at some pullovers too but we'll see.

After that I went to Guess? to find a mini denim skirt I was yearning for. It fitted me well and was on 60% discount, but damn when i wore it it was too short to be worn in a country like malaysia. I was sulking my arse out. and its not that i'll look normal with that skirt. So I was torn in between whether to get it or not! Fuck. A big huge fuck to the society here! I'll decide it later. What a painful decicion to consider.

After that I went to replay, god I saw this wonderful pleated miniskirt and it was 60% off normal price. SOOOOOO tempted to get it but heck, again, the country...*i think I'm just being overly paranoid* *criiiieeessssss* *needs advice* I told the guy sadly I'll come back some other time...gaaaahhhhhh

Next stop was French Connection. Was browsing through the boho skirts and short skirts. The short skirts are so pretty and not as pricey as replay but heck, i hate the bow accompanying the skirt. Makes it look so girly, and hello, im not a girl anymore!! So thats a nono. But the boho skirts were beautiful and affordable. So I got myself a knee length skirt, yellow with black sequin details forming imaginary flowers. Very feminine :) Me loves

Stopped over at Kookai and it was nothing but utter crap! bleh...

Oh people you already have to know that I'm practically going insane at the choices I had...I wish I was a millionaire's kid *soooobs*

After that I wanted to check Zara out but I stopped by at Naf Naf. I always thought this shop was the pricey, high class clothes store ever but when I stepped in, it was a heaven on earth. God the clothes, such class, and the boho skirts, I couldnt breathe well anymore. And the salesgirl was super super super helpful and kind. She helped me out with stuff I think I may like and yes her choices were mint! Just mint! I tried on so mnay pants, and skirts, and I wanted to get all of them but I only bought an absolutely comfortable linen pants and I love it to bits. I will get back and buy the boho skirts. Absolutely wonderful. So looks like I'll be eyeing more on Naf Naf for my clothes shopping needs.

Went to Zara and I was already pulling my hair from its roots so I told myself that if I stayed here longer, I will go insane. So I left. With my shopping. Nevertheless, I am so happy I got the stuff I liked.

I'll probably go back to KLCC to buy a few tops from Moschino and Guess? and go to Nine West. Checked out the bags I need there and they were gorgeous so I'll go there.

Ok Im a lamer and I dont know why I am blogging about ym shopping experiences.

Ciao. I'm tired

...life still sucks when you are enjoying it.

Was supposed to be a happy day until...

All thought all nightmares were over. Aunt is still suffering fron cancer even after her breast was removed a year and a half ago. And right now there is nothing anyone can do to cure her. so.....
And for the record, I have 2 aunts who are suffering from cancer at the final stages. So....
(i feel like crying and am actually very very sad)....

Upon hearing the news, distress, anguish and above all...

I thought I could sleep it all off but upon reaching home and getting out of the car

I crushed my thumb while slamming the car door and yet another fucking ordeal to live with, going to 24/7 clinics. So I have a broken small bone on my thumb and a thumb nail cut into 2.
Was bleeding profusely, and the nail............*biggest OUCH in the world*

What more worse could my day be?

I seek your prayers that I'll recover to sit for my exams in 6 weeks time properly :(
I dont need the delay to graduate, seriously

I had to blog about how Nick calls me "fatty" - fah-tei. fah-tei. fah-tei. fah-tei. fah-tei.
Its cute although it stresses about the current.......*sighs and says the word reluctantly* WEIGHT!!!!

On a contradictory note...




HAHAHAHAHAHAH! I had to blog about how my ex looks like lately. God he looks like an imperialist-cowboy hybrid! Oh Lord!

But nothing beats my current obssession....its overwhelming yeah!!









a person who says NOOOO to this does not deserve to live!!! juanesssss....mon amour!!!!!!!! madness madness

Listening attentively to....




Later.

Ok I have a loathsome French class in about 30 minutes from now and I am sooooo sick of it. cos I have to wait for 3 1/2 hours before I could get into the class. Beng alone isnt that pleasant at all. The mamak stall sucks to the core, the library is filled with junior shitheads trying to aim for the star in UTAR. trust me lil brats, you'll not bother a bit about your grades when you reach your final year, cos hardwork means prejudice in this place. Doesnt really apply to me but sometimes its a feeling i tend to get and wish to avoid. 

I just had a talk to Sanjay about my parents being sooooo against me going to england with an unmarried partners visa. He totally relates to my point of view because sometimes parents just dont see the good in choices you are bound to make. In case they have not noticed, Im already 21, that leaves me to full access to me and my own self, making my own damn decisions in my life. For teh love of god, its not you people who are getting married to Nick. Its funny how they would "smuggle" me to England when all legal access to England is just right in front of my eyes. And Im not going there as yet to study, wheres the fucking moolah? I already have all plans sorted out, I just need the damn permission, which i do not think would be obtainable even after decent and in depth explanation. What should I do? I'm cringing to the fact to just rip their temple and sort the brains out properly. Its sad....sadddd...sadddd....saddddddddd.......................

Was at the Millenium court street party, and its a night of heavy drinking, wild dancing, sweat drenching (what a wet, slippery and ot affair) and Anne and I managed to steal the centre stage(an unidentified person said that being on stage is nothing but a slutty attempt for attention. No comments to that.). With that, we made new friends, mostly of that....errr....."confused" gender. The younger boys werent happy that  " we were setting a bad example to the young girls around" I think I've spent straight 12 hours on the dancefloor. The finals was really boring, and we kept dancing. Especially when Benny Benassi, The bodyrockers'  "I like the way you move" and Madonnas "Get Together" came on. ..... oh oh and Daft Punks "One more time" back to back syncs with Blur's Song 2. Some dudes were shoving loads of drinks at the crowd and an idiot crowd surfed all around, and that dude almost fell right on my face. Bah. I cant really count the amount of random gropes I experienced, wait...no intentions in it..and also...out of my knowledge(that didnt mean im drunk, i wasnt even on high) A decent dude tried to chat up with me during the finals, but Anne caught me and told me to come over to the other side with her. Sad. Oh well....it wasnt a fantastic night, just a random wild night..not a biggie to me.

Time to begin my journey to the other block in the campus....feeling nauseated to survive yet another 2hours ordeal, with the lecturer who keeps saying "Allez Les Bleus"